Joy

For reasons unmentionable, I am surprisingly careless of the world around me now. Little things, as of this very moment, don't bother me at all. I feel immune to any annoyances and seem to be living a carefree life. I've learned to accept that worrying about things you can't even do anything about is just a waste of time. Who needs that in their life anyways? Living on a day-to-day basis is actually a lot of fun. I wouldn't call it "living life to the fullest" or anything, but I'm satisfied with everything thus far. I don't know why I even chose to write about the happiness that I'm feeling. I guess I feel like I just need to share it.

My negativity on things are below normal which I believe is a good sign. I don't even feel like getting stress over minor subjects. College is so-so. Family life has little to no drama. Social life is "Meh. Whatever." Ris is the best! I've learned to cherish everything that I have and have tried to just put aside all of the drama and struggles. I know it's unavoidable, but even for a short amount of time, I feel a great sense of joyfulness.

I'm even living up to being a little less fearful. I take risks now! I care little about what people think of me. I've even been taking up the challenges that are post upon me. Everything is just filled with laughs and the creation of great memories. It's surprising to be a little more positive than usual but the mood seems right.

I've been wanting to just go sight-seeing with Ris. Anywhere is fine. I just want to appreciate a view with her. Lake Tahoe? Twin Peaks at SF? Another beach perhaps? A huge park? Anywhere is fine. I'm wishing that Thanksgiving break is right around the corner. I want at least a whole day with her. I can wait though. They say that patience can lead to satisfying results. Until then, I'll try to keep up my joy.