Old Habits

Don't you sometimes wish you can just change some of the bad habits you currently possess? Like be a little more conscious of the things you do? It's not as easy as that though. They called it habits for a reason. You're already accustomed to follow a certain kind of behavior and without realizing it, you perform a natural act of what you're used to doing. For example, some people loves gnawing on their fingernails when they're drawn into something that interests them. Others have a habit of cursing a lot to the point where all you can hear is just colorful vocabulary that even you have to look up in an urban dictionary. (I know this has nothing to do with anything but...Haha, "I was just 'axeing' you a question"?? Geez! Ghetto talk! Haha!)

5 Habits I would like to change:

5. Racism: Everyone's a little racist inside...even with their own race! I have to stop thinking that every African American male will pull out a gun, that every Caucasian 'wannabe' is Eminem, that a lot of Latinos can jump really high (like fence-length-over-national-borders high), and that Asians prefer widescreen for obvious reasons (Although it would be easier to just open those damn chinky eyes! Goddamn...)

4. Procrastination: A lot of people have this in common with me. Things never get done because we get sidetracked or are just plain tired of doing things that seems forceful or too out of the way. I mean, who wants to do homework that's required? No one.

3. Laziness: People are just plain lazy. We might as well just stop breathing and just end life as we know it. Ok, maybe not that extreme. I mean, who wants to do homework at all? No one. Society and the convenience of technology made us this way.

2. Passiveness: Not in the way that I let people walk all over me, but in a way where I hide my emotions and try to push those that care about me away. I really don't mean it, but things like too much flattery or feeling excluded makes me act all cocky and touchy and as if I care little about it even though it means a lot (both negatively and positively) to me. Hiding your inner feelings can be a way of being passive.

1. Drama: The act of being dramatic is just old and tiring. In reality, people could care less about you're feelings and getting all emotional just wastes effort and time that could be well spent enjoying with people that would rather live carefree lives. Due to my paranoia, I tend to get all moody out of nowhere and I unintentionally take it all out on people that care about me. I sincerely apologize (for having my period...Just kidding.). Life's too short.

Oh, boy. There are many more habits I need to change but I'm working on it. I mean, I can always put it up for my New Year's Resolution instead. Uhh, there I go again. procrastinating about every little shit...

...What are your bad habits?...