"It's Lonely Being a Third Wheel!"

For those who has ever experienced being a third wheel, it's an uncomfortable feeling. It honestly sucks to be one. Feeling left out, feeling like you don't belong, or thinking that you're just there for comical reasons gives you this uneasy experience. Even though there's three of you, you feel like a loner. And so, it's sad to be the third wheel.

Sometimes, when I'm out with my friend, Learyan, and my girl, Ris, I feel like I should be doing something to entertain them both. I mean, I am their "link". Makes me feel special, right? Not really. It often ends up as silence, casual talks floating around, then more silence. What it really means is that I'm not doing a very good job at including them both in the activities or conversations that we have. And so, being the in-between guy is also sad.

Before you say anything though, I've also experienced being the lonely number. Even driving Na and his girl Shelly around makes for a soundless, excluded, and ultimately lonely state. Not that I'm complaining either because even if they attempted to talk to me, I kind of just respond with a "yes" or "no" or a brief answer. It just seems like the couple is going out of their way to talk to the cab driver (me) just because it seems like its a requirement to do so. Either way, I'll actually feel much worse knowing that two people are listening to you talk when in all honesty, they should be the one spending time together flirting or whatever it is they do.

And so, if you were ever the third wheel, I know how you feel. This is why I honestly feel some discomfort when the plans includes only three people. I don't mind it at all, but I worry about the happiness of others. I'm a pretty caring guy, huh? Not really. I just feel guilty whenever there's nothing to talk about between the three friends. But I always try my best to include everyone to ease my guilt.

I hope in the future, when there are plans to go to places, it would be an even number. Or at least more than three people. But don't think that it's no fun to be a trio. I think, with all the awkwardness, it's hilarious thinking about it by the end of the day. I've also noticed that jokes tends to be twice as funny than it really is. The reason? Laughing hard makes everything better...Haha!

(Note to Learyan: If you're reading this, don't back down from the plans we made to go to L.A. next year. If it ends up as just us three, it's really ok! You never know, maybe Ris' friend will still be single by then...Haha! How cute...a love story within a love story! =])